One week ago I received an ultimatum, I have until October 22nd to turn in my dissertation proposal (essentially, the first 4-5 chapters of a 10 chapter book). My advisor also suggested I send him a two-page summary on a new topic I was introducing ... something that changes my whole angle.
So I spent Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday working on this "two page summary". It ended up being more like 6 pages, which I did on my own because the research is actually related to my proposal and it will help me in the long run. After being up until 12 or 1 every night until I was finished, I sent it to my advisor at midnight on Monday. Essentially, I spent about 20 hours on this 2-page-summary that isnt even an element of my dissertation. While it makes a contribution, its maybe 1% of the work I need to do between now and 10/22. So again, I panic. If it took me that long to do something unrelated and not really contributing to the final effort, how the heck am I going to get this done? I dont mind taking all of my time and devoting it over the next few weeks. Thats not my concern. My concern is that, even with all the time I can contribute, its just not going to be enough :(
And then I worry about the fact that I have a trainer during Brooke's nap for just that one day a week, because naptime is a good 1-2 hours I can spend on my dissertation. Sure, its just an hour. But those hours are hard to find and I question if its even worth it at this point :( I'm not doing anything else in terms of exercise. How much impact does one hour of training a week do? I'm betting not much, if anything at all.